So today I went to Professor Belknap's masterclass as part of my lessons and I learned soooooo much. I didn't even have my violin and yet there was so much to learn. From this stemmed the desire to once again be a music major. I think it's probably because I went from my life centering around music and always having time for as much music as I wanted to only having time to practice twice a week. It's not working for me.
I hate it when this happens (although I love love love the things I learn) because I have to stop and reevaluate my life and try to figure out if what I'm doing is right. Right now I'm still not sure. Tonight I just wish I had time to practice for three hours a day again, and I wish I had a group of orchestra friends that were always willing to talk and hang out. Basically I just wish my life centered around music again.
Ugh....I don't know what to do.
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